Sunday, December 11, 2011

So cold

In this life there will be times where things and people let you down. Its tough but it happens. The decisions you make have consequences and you must live with and accept the unpleasant aftermath...i wish pain was non existent in my life
I wish I didn't feel for others, care so much, love so hard...i just wish I was so cold that nothing would phase me. So cold that I cared only about myself, so cold that pain and hurt would bounce off of my cold, hard, rotten heart. So cold that emotion would be something I hear of and not experience....i want to be so cold......i just can't take another beating, another shattered dream, broken promise or separation. What do I owe life that it has to rob me? Who have I done wrong that loyalty is non existent? Im always loyal... You reap what you sow right? I'm questioning the seeds and if the ground was good soil. Should I lie down and let it get the best of me, should I run and hide, or do I keep fighting eventhough im tired and just want to feel safe? I wouldnt care about any of this if I were just COLD.

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